It changed me, had I changed it?

Physical Experiences:

• Rapid pumping from my chest, hyperventilating with gratitude and fear.
• The bags are heavy, it feels wrong to lift them into the truck. 
• Embracing friends who feel the confusion as I feel brings a sense of belonging and comfort. 
• My eyes burn with yet more tears, my head throbs with exhaustion physical and mental. 
• I float across the room taking in the view I feel so light as I look around the room to others i care so much about.
• When my feet touch the ground my body is overcome with familiarity. 
• Our pace quickens, my heart is begging to burst we turn the corner to have my heart swallowed with bittersweet joy, happiness and accomplishment.
• Her hug tells me its over, there is nothing more left to do. She grasps tighter never to let go. I am relaxed with a sense of fulfillment.

Scenes:

• The bed is empty of pillows and blankets, cluttered with a few miscellaneous items yet unclaimed.
• The blacktop heat suffocates the air and chokes the ability to breath. Keys are absent and the suitcases are stranded in the back seat.
• I have walked in the house so many times, yet this is as odd as it was the first time. Only familiar faces can calm the anxious heart.
• Clean and pure in white I sit. The atmosphere is truly celestial.
• Bags are checked and the security gate is next. Watching the ground get farther and farther in my cramped seat.
• Mountains are in sight, the airport is as confusing as ever. People congratulating us on our arrival. 

SPEECH:

• My voice shows pleading as I speak.
• President Ware words always express confidence as he thanks me for my efforts.
• We all laugh and joke but you can tell within our voices that nothing is a joke, fear is the real king at the moment.
• Testimonies spoken express reflection and thought. 
• “you go first” “no you go first.” “your the leaders you go first.” 
• “Stay together, we walk out together.”
• We would fight through tears to express love and gratitude.

Emotion In The Moment:

• Had I done enough in my time. It had changed me, but did I change it? 
• Tears of absolute gratitude and humility
• The brotherhood as goodbyes are said
• Reflection while driving to the home.
• My heart was overflowing with joy.
• Tears sprinted down my face as the plane took off and I left behind a world only I could comprehend.
• Tears of joy and accomplishment as i embraced family and friends.

PEOPLE OF CONSEQUENCE:

• President Ware
• Members of the church
• Companions
• Missionaries
• Family
• Friends
• Guy on the plane.